My dear lovely husband fajri,

I am so sickeningly in love with you!! You make my blood run faster and my heart beat faster.
I am just beside myself. It is the most beautiful feeling in the world.
I feel like I am shaking inside all over.
Oh man, I am just aching for you!! :)

My fajri, how do you do it??
I know I always ask you that. But really, I am just shocked that a man could so precisely be attractive to me in every way that matters.

And I am just in heaven with the way you speak to me.
Thank you for all the many compliments that you give so freely.
They really do mean so much.
You have no idea.
I've never experienced this outpouring of love.

You know why I love you so much?
Because not only are you everything I have ever dreamed of in my most pipe dream fantasies, but you truly appreciate the kind of woman that I want to be.
It means so much to see that we value the same things.
It reminds me of something a very wise woman told me...
She said that in order to recognize something good, you have to know it yourself.
Anyway, I see us recognizing in each other the most important things... and I LOVE IT.
I love it that at this point we both know enough that we know what makes a good man or a good woman. How lucky are we? I feel so, so blessed to be able to choose a companion from this state of life, with my very revived spirit, a new set of eyes, and knowledge of what is important!!
ah... I feel so lucky!

My fajri, you know what I can't stop thinking? I'm married you right now. haha. I don't care if our first Meeting doesn't set off the fireworks we are anticipating. I will give this everything.
Thank you for also being willing to give this some time, if need be!
There is just WAY too much good here.
I just couldn't pass this up quickly... if you will have me, that is.
And, as always, if for whatever reason, it just isn't meant to be..well.. that will be okay!!
I will accept it. I will be OK. And I will still just admire you,  respect you for the man that you are.
No matter what the outcome, I really feel there is a reason that we have come together :)
Already the blessings have been overflowing.
So even if this was just for a few weeks of the brightest, most exhilarating hope in the world, I will not regret one drop of this!!
Overall, I just know that whatever happens will be MEANT to be!!!!
I believe that completely. i just love you.

And fireworks?? Um, I have NEVER had so many fireworks with other guy. Ever.
And it's cause this time I really know what I am attracted to... and I know who I am.. it's just different than any bit of random giddiness I have ever felt in the past.
I just can't wait to be in your presence.

With so very much love.. your wife,

Carella